AM: I ask you the questions that Ghan asked Matias, in relation to the moment of birth, and considering that most of the traumas come from this instant and that perceptions and bonds are generated at that moment. «Was it pleasant, was it painful, did I feel abandoned, did I cry, what did I feel, what was your reaction at birth? Becoming aware of this moment will help you recognize the first pulse with which you came into this world.»
Me: my birth happened on a very cold and rainy day, the middle of winter in the city of Buenos Aires. I was born at teatime, after a few hours of labor, and my mother, who was 1.55m tall and weighed 48kg before becoming pregnant, delivered me by natural childbirth, having weighed more than 4kg. This meant that it was quite laborious for her until I could be born. At that time, husbands were not allowed to witness the birth, so it was just my mother, with the doctors and nurses. As for her, it was not a pleasant birth, because she suffered a lot and the birth itself ended up causing her nervous problems in the early years.
AM: I mean, it was not a pleasant delivery, and there was a lot of suffering at that time.
Me: It was hard for my mother, and she has lived that experience in this way, yes.
AM: And what were the first moments like?
Me: from what I have been told, obviously the family came to meet me at the Sanatorium, grandparents, uncles, aunts and uncles and other relatives. The large family of Italian and Spanish roots was present in those first moments, as it was throughout my childhood, and even adolescence.
AM: as we already talked about, the family environment has been very strong. And what about your father and sister?
Me: my father has always been the person who had to work and take care of the obligations. The economic situation was not the best in those years, and he worked a lot to be able to bring food to the house. My mother did not work, and they and my sister lived in my paternal grandparents’ house, at first in the room that had been my father’s when he was still single.
AM: A big burden when what you earn is not enough to support a family.
Me: What I have been told several times, as a funny anecdote, is that my sister, at the time of my birth she was 19 months old, when they took her to the room, she came in to see her mother, greeted her, hugged her and then she said to her: look, this is your little brother, do you want to greet him? She looked at me, made a reluctant grimace, turned her head, turned around and walked out.
AM: a very indifferent welcome
Me: coming to occupy a place that was all hers.
AM: that is, if we recapitulate, you were born on a cold and rainy day, in the middle of winter, after a complicated birth, with a lot of pain, with your mother alone with the doctors, your father pressured to bring food to his family, with an indifferent sister, and with the support of the whole family group supporting a complicated situation.
Me: and again reply to my thought, what I found regarding my names and surnames: He who, with difficulty, from the sea, came from the center of the world and made his space with courage for the journey…..
AM: because you, your mother, your father, your sister, and all those who have surrounded you at that time chose it. It was the starting point you chose for this path of your life.
I invite you to watch the video Matías dealing with the topic of the day.
Finally, I encourage everyone to engage in conversation with their own I Am, to listen to what we each have to say to each other. No one else but us can re-signify our own being!