AM: What do you think about work?
Me: that it has been a very important tool for me, for my economic development, for the sustenance of my family, and that it was a legacy of my ancestors, who have come from other lands, to live a better life in this one, and who have worked all their lives, precisely, as sustenance to feed, shelter and take care of the needs of the family group.
AM: and do you like to work?
Me: I must say that the work I do has always pleased me. Having to be in constant contact with people from different countries of the world is what makes me feel at ease with my work. The operation itself has a lot of pressures to get the cargo in time and in shape, emergencies, problems at customs, during the trip, many things that can cause the process not to follow the normal operation, and that generates tensions that I would prefer not to have. But I understand that any job has its pressures, and you have to know how to control them.
AM: And do you control them?
Me: Not always. I feel that as the years go by, the pressure bothers me a lot more. I don’t want to have more pressure. It’s like I tell myself that I have already had throughout my life, specifically in relation to work, different types of pressure, which sometimes I have handled very well, other times not so well, and some others I could not handle, and they provoked different types of reactions in my body, above all, and in my emotions and in my mind, too.
AM: when you felt completely overwhelmed.
Me: when the problem was out of my control, and there was no way to solve it by myself. It’s like letting yourself be defeated. Not being able to do anything to solve a situation that is out of your hands. And the whole process was going on the inside, and it was like entering a different dimension, where my mind felt like it was being crushed.
AM: and that process seemed like an eternity
Me: I was telling myself that I had to get through it, that everything was going to go back on track, that I had to keep control of myself and that everything was going to fall into place accordingly. Even if it was not what I liked or wanted to happen.
AM: and that’s the way it was
Me: it was always like that. There I was learning that everything is on track, and that things happened for a reason. I had to learn from it and that the temperance of passing a critical moment made the final result satisfactory.
AM: the pressure brought out the best in you, and many times your essence shone in a different way.
Me: and I learned new things I thought I couldn’t do. It was always good, still, today I prefer things to be less pressurized. I’m kind of crouched down to not wanting to have more pressures. I want to live the time I have left on this path in a relaxed way. No pressure. No need to learn big things. It’s like I feel that I don’t have the strength for that pressure. That my body can’t tolerate it. I try to listen to my body, and not so much to my mind, which is always at high revolutions, and my body asks me to be on the beach, relaxed, in the shade, listening to the sound of the sea, meditating, writing, painting, doing whatever I want, without the need to work, without the need to look for economic sustenance, without having obligations of any kind.
AM: doing nothing
Me: well, not nothing, I would be doing something. In everything I said, I think I would be doing something.
Me: yes, resting and doing activities that I would like to do.
AM: relaxing on a beach, which you do when you go on vacation, as well as listening to the sound of the sea. Meditating, you do it every day at home, as well as writing your blog. You haven’t painted for years, and all because you didn’t like the technique you were learning. You haven’t tried to go anywhere else while going about your daily life, and you think that when you’re bored, you’ll start painting. When you are bored at home, you don’t know what to do, and you don’t get active enough to do something new. You know that your sign pulls you to the home, to do nothing. You do not relate as you should, according to what we have already discussed, and you would not work it, because on the beach gives the feeling that you would be quite alone. Tell me something, how long would it take to tell you: what the hell am I doing here doing nothing?
Me: y… maybe one or two years. I guess that’s what I need to get my path back on track. I’m sure I’m not going to be able to sit still, and I’m going to have to do something.
AM: you have already been a couple of years without a steady job, and it has been very stressful for you, although that time helped you to realize that you can do anything you want, and with will and determination, you can succeed in any branch of work you like and want to develop.
Me: yes, like tourism, the TV show, home exchange, all that came up when I was not working with foreign trade.
AM: but you never stopped doing something. It was not your essence. The weight of doing something is much stronger on you than doing nothing. The pressure of your work is little compared to what you feel when you do nothing. So, what are we talking about?
Me: needing a vacation, I guess. To regain that energy, I need to continue my way. It’s been a couple of years since I’ve taken a well-deserved vacation, without thinking about work, and I’m needing it.
AM: we have come to the heart of the matter. It is important to work, to do an activity that we like and also provides us with the economic support to live the life we want, but it is also important to be able to stop every now and then to recharge our batteries. To relax and enjoy ourselves and nature. Of our environment. And once recharged, to go on with daily life and continue walking the chosen path.
I invite you to watch Matias’ video with the theme of the day.
Finally, I encourage everyone to engage in conversation with their own I Am, to listen to what we each have to say to each other. No one else but us can re-signify our own being