AM: How do you get along with your nerves?
Me: I have to say that it’s somewhere in between. I tend to have moments of internal nervousness, which I don’t show easily, and moments of extreme relaxation, where the calmness is total, and where I would love to be all the time.
AM: And when do you feel those nerves?
Me: In moments of work tension, above all. Family situations where tension is present. Moments of stress, let’s say.
AM: you don’t feel at ease.
Me: I try to handle it, but internally I don’t feel at ease. I know it is an issue that I have to go through. These are situations I have to go through to learn and work my way through, but it drains me most of the time. I am usually in a work area where suddenly stressful situations appear and I have lived it for many years, and what in other times was pure adrenaline, and going through it to have the success to solve those situations, today, minimum issues are already uncomfortable for me, and I solve them, of course, but it does not give me neither the satisfaction nor the desire to go through those situations again. And the nerves come quickly.
AM: And how do you try to minimize them?
Me: Obviously, by relaxing. Leaving it to others to handle the situation, and me supervising that work, and releasing that responsibility to the person who is handling it. And acting if I have to, so that the problem is solved. I have to be at my place of work taking care that everything is okay, and that responsibility remains firm. But, from another place. I prefer to focus on what I really feel is important and prepare myself so that my nerves are balanced, in those complex situations that I know I have to go through and do it taking particular care of it.
AM: you take it as something sensitive this issue of not getting nervous too much.
Me: Yes, I do. I have found that I prefer to be calm. And use my energy for other things rather than to placate the nerves that appear in stressful situations. Although I think very fast and I am very active in those situations, I already feel that I have gone through many of them, and today I prefer relaxation, tranquility, doing everything I have to do with the oriental philosophy of calm, peace, and harmony.
AM: you know it is just an internal decision that it is so.
Me: I know. It is your own decision.
AM: you still do not choose. You still depend on the Universe, the environment, and its welfare over your own.
Me: my Virginian energy of feeling that I have to assist my environment, and partly satisfy that inner streak. There is always something positive and something negative in the actions we take and their results. It’s in being aware and feeling the best you can, isn’t it?
AM: it’s true. Nothing is totally good or bad. It’s always the perception from where you look at it.
Are you ready to review the month?
Me: Yes, I am!
AM: Here we go
AM: at the source Me: I am universal origin
AM: in resonance Me: I am origin of dimensions
AM: in energy Me: I am origin of sound
AM: in abundance Me: I am origin of the heartbeat
AM: in strengths Me: I am the origin of all entities
AM: in matter Me: I am origin of the Matrix
AM: in security Me: I am the origin of all patterns
AM: in wealth Me: I am the origin of every way
AM: in comfort Me: I am the origin of all destiny
AM: in well-being Me: I am eternal origin
AM: in the home Me: I am the guardian of the universe
AM: in painting Me: I am the guardian of consciousness
AM: in music Me: I am guardian of truth
AM: in poetry Me: I am a guardian of the heart
AM: in literature Me: I am a guardian of being
AM: in sculpture Me: I am the guardian of the web
AM: in dance Me: I am guardian of the world
AM: in architecture Me: I am a guardian of the way
AM: in the cinema Me: I am the guardian of evolution
AM: in art Me: I am the guardian of the eternal
AM: in the temple Me: I am a channel between spirits
AM: in the endocrine Me: I am a channel between consciousnesses
AM: in the immuno-respiratory Me: I am a channel of communication
AM: in the circulatory-lymphatic Me: I am a channel between souls
AM: in the digestive Me: I am a channel between beings
AM: in the excretory Me: I am a channel between creators
AM: in the reproductive-skin Me: I am a channel between worlds
AM: in the muscular Me: I am a channel between roads
AM: in the osseous Me: I am a channel between masters and apprentices
AM: in the nervous Me: I am an eternal channel
We end with this review, the month of the Taurus energy in this second cycle of the Tree of Life, on the Path of the I Am.
I invite everyone to watch the video of Matias with the theme of the day.
Finally, I encourage everyone to engage in conversation with their own I Am, to listen to what we each have to say to each other. No one else but us can re-signify our own being